IAmA terminally ill 43 year old husband and father. Yesterday, I floated the idea of letting me go. Everyone freaked the F out. AMA
I have a heart problem that I contracted through a virus. I have outlived every prediction by over six months. I have been in the hospital four times in the last six weeks, the last for having seizures for the first time. I am tired. I just want this illness to run it's course and allow me to die. But my friends and family will not allow me this last possible measure of control over my own life.
Edit: I gotta take a break for a little while. I've got some meds I need to take and I just got a nosebleed for some reason. You guys are being really great and thoughtful and I want to get to everybody...I'm just really weak. I'm sorry. I'll be back after I get everything under control.
Edit 2: I hung around with a paper towel stuck up my nose until someone mentioned a 9K vacation. I wasn't aware of that, don't want that, don't THINK about that. This was just me, bored, on a Saturday afternoon after a really difficult couple of days workin' some things out. I still haven't had time to check out somebody getting laid because they were sick, I might be cool with that j/k, but no money raising, or anything like that. That's not why I'm here. I'm here to foster real conversation about end of life decisions. And it's going really, really well.
Edit 3: I must have been pushing my mental powers too hard to make my nose bleed that badly. It's all stopped now and I'm back. I'm going to try to answer everyone who has something tangible to add or to answer any questions that are asked.
Edit 4, The Quest for the End. I'm calling it a night, everybody. I'm exhausted, I need to take my night pile of pills, and I really need to go to bed. I'm leaving this account open, I'll be answering all the night people tomorrow (when they're asleep) and I want anyone who wants to PM me, do so. I love talking. Especially with gonewild girls who want to have sex with me. I'm still open to that. :)
Edit 5: It is Sunday morning here, I am pretty weak today. I am going to endeavor to answer as many people as I can, and I hope this AMA has helped people. Become an organ donor! And thanks to everyone for being so kind to me. It has been really great. Also, the GW girl thing was a joke, people.
Edit 6, or "I just love doing edits!": I have decided that I will only be taking questions about my new movie "Rampart". (That is a joke, too, people who didn't get the gw one earlier.)
Edit 7: The Last. I'm too weak today to really go on. I've answered all the PM's and tried to get all the comments. I'm leaving this account open for those who want to comment or just want to send PM's to talk to me. I want to thank Reddit for being so kind and generous and helpful. Everyone has been really great, and I apparently frontpaged at one point, so I can mark that off my list! Thanks again. And remember, just be nice to each other and do some good every day. Is it really that much to ask?