I am a victim of forced pornography by the company GirlsDoPorn.
Hi, the title pretty much says it all. I obviously do not want to provide proof to the public that I am who I am for the sake of my own safety and hoping the people who run this page will allow that but I am a 21-year-old (F) who was one out of the many women that have been lied to, blackmailed, and scammed into exploitation by the company GirlsDoPorn.
For the past two years, I have debated on posting something like this here in hopes to connect to other individuals who have gone through or are going through the same thing. For a long, while I have held back out of fear of being condemned due to lack of proof and the herds of misogynistic humans who believe that any one person that has had their legs open are immediately deemed as whores, nothing more, and definitely not someone to be taken seriously. Now that the founders of the company of GDP are being brought to justice and possibly being faced with life in prison (Here are articles to refer to:
I feel (and excuse my language) a FUCKTON more confident in speaking out about this. I was 18 years old when I was coerced into working with that God-forsaken company. EIGHTEEN years old. A year older from 17, practically a child. My brain was not fully developed then and at 21, it still isn't!!! Long ass story told in short; I was lied to, told that I would be flown out to San Diego from Washington over 1000 miles apart from where I resided at the time and back for free, I was given fake but very reassuring female references who claimed to have worked with the same company before, I was given fake website links that supposedly displayed pictures of women they have photoshot before and all for the validation of a supposed "photoshoot". Everything they were attempting to sell out to me seemed all so legit so I figured, what could be the harm?
When I arrived there I was picked up by two men and a woman. They drove me to the hotel where I was then told that I only had one of two options: 1.) Perform a video shoot(s) with them or 2.) Find my own way back home. With little to no money and being alone in an unfamiliar state where I knew no one and being surrounded by persistently intimidating men, I felt obligated to oblige. In other words, I was left with no other choice.
I was told and reassured more than once that the video I was taping was only going to be sold to private collectors in countries such as India and the Philipines or Australia. When they had me sign their, what seemed like a 20-page consent form, I was pushed and rushed to sign without being allowed to read through it because I needed "to get started with the real work ASAP because your returning flight is the next day." They very briefly told me what the forms had supposedly stated and said "sign here here and here" quickly took the papers away and then continued to explain what I would be doing for the shoot. They told me the shoot would only take no longer than an hour, 5 minutes max for 4-5 different positions. It turned out nothing like what they had promised.
I ended up filming for 4 hours straight with less than a 3-minute water break in between. The man I filmed with was no way near gentle. I cried, screamed, and begged to stop in between sets, and even bled more than once. Every time I told them I wanted to stop they told me I was obligated to comply and if I didn't I would be going against my contract. Yeah, sure maybe that's why it took 4 hours lol I mean I guess. I never felt more used and broken after it was all over. I felt like every fiber of my existence was pricked and pulled out of me and shoved back in all at once.
Not to mention also, before I did the shoot I asked if we were able to use protection for the shoot because I was concerned about my sexual health &amp;amp;amp; safety, the supposed manager provided me with "proof" of STD test results that belonged to my costar that showed up as negative for everything and said they had plan B pills on hand but 2 weeks after shooting I tested positive for chlamydia. This was all just the beginning of the nightmare of my life.
Approximately 1 month after I filmed with the company, I received a message on twitter from my best friend at the time, saying that she saw what I had done and that videos were circling around in my hometown with me in it. She was furious and condemned me for it. At that very moment, my chest sank deeper than the Mariana's trench. As you could figure, she was no longer a friend of mine after that. Not even hours past, I received sexually harassing messages from strangers and people I knew from my hometown. My mom, dad, step mom, god parents, aunts and uncles, my entire fucking family found out shortly after that same day as well.
That was all three years ago and within those three years I have been ousted from my family, group of friends, and school, my personal information had been leaked and exposed for anyone on the internet to have access to, I have been stalked, I have been raped in my previous workplace and I have OD'd once, almost taking my life.
My life today has definitely shed some light but it will never be the same as it was before everything went downhill. I will forever have these scars, I will forever relive the memories in flashbacks and nightmares, I will never get back the people in my life that I have lost, I will never get back my dignity and reputation but at the very least, I will always be a stronger person than I was then. Here is another article from another girl who tells pretty much the same story:
For anyone out there who is also a victim or is going through something similar (revenge porn/leaked nudes/etc) please do not hesitate to contact me! And for all the creeps, prudes, and rude people that have nothing good to say well, thanks for stopping by to read anyways. ✌🏼 EDIT: please disregard my typo referring to Australia as a third world country.. It was a mistake I made while editing.. my apologies if I offended anyone😅
EDIT (I now have one form of proof without having to identify who I am, this is an email that was sent to me 2 years ago from Brian Holm who is one of the attorneys taking part in the lawsuit against GDP. I have said my part in the lawsuit and I have attempted everything in my power to do what needed to be done in the light of justice.): Proof (1)
EDIT (Hotel &amp;amp;amp; Flight Itineraries): Proof (2)
EDIT: Also, thank you everyone for the abundance of responses! I am truly overwhelmed... lol I didn't expect this big of a turn out... I will respond to as many replies as i can... THANK YOU! ♥️🙏🏼
LAST AND FINAL EDIT: I think I am pretty much done responding to questions and replies now. Again, my sole purpose for this post was to be able to help and reach out to other victims of this kind of abuse. NOT to recieve pity and NOT to make excuses for what happened. Everything I stated are all factual. Thank you to everyone that blessed me with their kind words and encouragement to heal! I appreaciate that bunch of you so much! And as for the people that had literally nothing good to say, clearly the lot of you all get off by being rude and bodied by responses to your negative comments. I'll pray that those of you find something better to do with your sorry ass lives. Peace! ✌🏼