Happy ides of March, Reddit! I did an AMA last summer, and by popular demand, here I am with a follow up CANCER FREE :)

Since my last AMA, I have:

Bought a house

Got a puppy

Started a new job

Starred in some promotional material for the hospital that did my treatments

Kicked the shit out of cancer

Simply walked into Mordor

Ask me anything about any of the above, or anything else.


Here I am mere moments after hearing the great news!

Here is one of my medical bills (timestamp included)

Here is the mask I was fitted with for receiving radiation

Here is my hair growth 3 months post chemo

Here is my hair growth 4 months post chemo

Edit; Thanks for all the questions, everyone! I'm heading out to enjoy the sunshine with my pups now. I'll be back on later tonight to answer any leftover questions I haven't gotten to yet

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ryallba820 karma

Hey, I'm a 21 year old male who's undergoing radiation and chemotherapy treatment for grade 3 brain cancer. Just want to let you know you're a great role model for those of us still fighting. Wishing you the best and I hope I can call myself a survivor like you in a month or two :)

thebossapplesauce709 karma

I'll see you in the winner's circle! Bring snacks.

Afrodeejiac763 karma

How did you beat stage three? I have never made it to stage four without cheats.

thebossapplesauce1629 karma

up up down down left right left right B A :)

Smeeee268 karma

That was awesome. Have some gold :)

thebossapplesauce422 karma

OoOh shiny. Thanks!

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thebossapplesauce19 karma

I'm cool with it

ostrowiak7 karma

oh please, a stage 4 cancer survivor has more sense of humor than you

ipinkyx-1 karma

It might be cool with it since shes a survivor, but its not funny when you still have it.

thebossapplesauce1 karma

Dude, cancer jokes are my jam, even when I still had it.

Hizenboig627 karma

What breed is your house?

thebossapplesauce543 karma

Um? It's a quad level?

Hizenboig460 karma

Oops! I meant puppy haha

thebossapplesauce207 karma

Oh okay, that makes more sense!! He's a doberman pinscher.

potsmokeington12 karma

puppy pic?

thebossapplesauce81 karma

most recent

Falling asleep sitting up after a day at the dogpark

siegewolf54 karma

What will i get If I breed my quad level with my A-frame?

thebossapplesauce102 karma

houses can't breed brah

Ekontheman361 karma

Hi, my mother has stage 4 full skeletal bone cancer and brain cancer. I don't really know what to say or ask. Just I guess its nice to some one can beat it. Hopefully my mom can too.

thebossapplesauce569 karma

Just tell her to remember that you can't control what happens to you, only how you react to it. That was very calming for me. It's out of my hands.

Liahoni269 karma

Grats on your Win!

I'm stage 4 Brain, Lungs and Liver right now.

My biggest gripe; Can't poop. The pain meds and 'roids have me locked up tighter than a drum. I'm so cranky!

Did you have to deal with this? What was your solution?


thebossapplesauce87 karma

That was the worst! Oh man I forgot about it until now. Just keep your doctor in the know about it and they'll hook you up with some stuff to help!

SaysNiceThingsAboutU250 karma


thebossapplesauce372 karma

I started feeling sick around this time last year or maybe a little earlier, mostly short of breath all the time. I had gone to the doctor a few times for it and they just kept giving me antibiotics. On the 4th visit (May 16, 2013) they took an xray and discovered a softball sized mass in my mediastinum, which is the area in the chest between the lungs. I started chemo June 10 and finished October 7. Then I started radiation on December 9 and finished January 5.

I was pretty lucky in that chemo and radiation didn't effect me too much. I only felt nauseous and threw up maybe twice. What sucked the most was the throat/mouth pain, and it got worse the further I got along in treatment. I would be so hungry because of the steroids I was on, but couldn't eat without intense pain (think a mouth loaded with hundreds of canker sores from hell).


BeautifulCreampie226 karma

I don't mean to imply doctor incompetence, but it really took them four visits to take an x-ray for a person with chronic shortness of breath? I had a bad cough and the first thing my doctor did was send me to the x-ray room.

thebossapplesauce364 karma

It did. I'm still furious about it.

DartosMD250 karma

Doctor here. It's not a question of incompetence. It's a question of convenience for the patient. Everyone would like a 100% accurate diagnosis 100% of the time for every visit however, this is just not possible or practical given the time and economic constraints of outpatient medical practice. Nor is 100% accuracy necessary for relatively minor and common symptoms. The vast majority of health complaints for a previously healthy 20 something either resolve on their own or have a common and easily treatable condition such as asthma or reflux. I.e. only a tiny percentage of young patients seen for a cough are likely to have a mediastinal lymphoma and so Xrays are not commonly ordered at the first or even second or third visit. The decision to order more advanced testing (like a chest Xray) depends on the severity and acuity (duration) of the symptoms combined with other factors like past medical history and associated symptoms that may increase the statistical likelihood of a condition more serious than just a cough. This type of step-up in diagnostics for symptoms that persist after initial conservative treatment is essentially standard of care.

Now, that being said, a doc who spends more time with their patient getting a proper detailed history and exam MAY be able to increase the accuracy of their differential diagnosis and determination of which patients need further work up. In our current system, docs are paid per visit and so their schedules are packed and "shortcuts" are taken (treatment given for the most likely causes without making a definitive diagnosis) for minor complaints that need to be compressed into a 10-15 min visit. Statistically this works out since - again - most of the patients will get better no matter what is done and those with continued symptoms will get more work up or treatment. This pattern may repeat over 2 visits or 4 or more. That's not important as long as the correct diagnosis is made within a resonable period of time so that the prognosis is not altered (so that it's not too late). The down side is that the patient is frustrated at the continued symptoms and the need to return for numerous visits. However, this would not necessarily get better in a socialized system such as the UK's NHS where there is even more pressure to constrain costs through central planning and limited resources.

thebossapplesauce95 karma

I'm so glad you chimed in. My question for you - when I was diagnosed I had a sizable pleural effusion, about 2.5 liters. I started going in for shortness of breath in February, and it got worse and worse until the xray was ordered in May. It stands to reason that fluid was accumulating during that time, but my doctor was auscultating my chest at each visit and never thought I had anything serious. Wouldn't a large pleural effusion sound abnormal?

DartosMD82 karma

Yes, a large pleural effusion should be detectable especially if it was mostly or only on one side. This should cause a significant and detectable difference in the breath sounds on auscultation of the chest. However, it's impossible to know if your shortness of breath was caused by a significant pleural effusion back in February or whether there were other reasons for your symptoms such as anemia (low white count) or partial compression and blockage of a bronchus (one of the airway branches of the lung), etc. etc. Often there are several causes for a specific symptom for a given condition which makes these kinds of speculations very complex.

Edit: Suspecting a pleural effusion on exam should prompt more concern and further studies since this is not at all commonly associated with common causes of cough nor seen in otherwise normal 20 year olds.

Edit/correction: Anemia = low blood count (Hb). Leukopenia = low white count. My bad.

thebossapplesauce26 karma

It was all on one side. I wasn't only auscultated in February, I had been seen 4 times leading up to diagnosis - in February, March, April and May.

frponkus90 karma

My sister was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma about a month ago. Her cancer presented itself in a very similar way to yours, did you have lymphoma? If so, what type of chemo did they give you? My sister is starting her second round of chemo but first round of EPOCH on Tuesday.

thebossapplesauce124 karma

Yes I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma. I was on escalated BEACOPP. Send her my regards.

BiWifeSharer24 karma

Was a feeding tube an option? Two guys I work with recently had them put in because they're treatment is focusing around their throat and eating is going to be extremely painful for them.

thebossapplesauce41 karma

I guess I could have asked for it but I would have needed to be hospitalized for that and I'd rather be at home.

monkeypowah159 karma

Could you tell it was good news from your doctors face?

thebossapplesauce307 karma

Not at all. He had a great poker face.

Callmebigm158 karma

Hey! Im proud of you.

thebossapplesauce112 karma

Thanks :)

WhosaWhatsa126 karma

What's the most positive outcome of surviving cancer for you?

thebossapplesauce292 karma

I have the most amazing sense of perspective now. Nothing really agitates me anymore, and if it does, it's not for too long.

WhosaWhatsa68 karma

Thank you so much for the response. Do you have any advice for others looking to achieve this perspective?

thebossapplesauce177 karma

Survive cancer. Honestly though, I think it takes a serious hardship and/or brush with death to really change your perspective for good.

p_iynx57 karma

Such a true statement! I was diagnosed with a very painful disability that will never go away and can't really be treated. I know it's not serious like cancer, but no one quite understands how terrible it is to be in pain everywhere, every day, plus all the other shit that goes along with it. But it's definitely made me mature very quickly, and I'm a lot more empathetic towards others. I forgive other people's weaknesses and faults because I've realized that you never know what someone else is going through.

What helped you most through the hard times? My illness is hard; the suicide rate is extremely high. The awareness site said, "if everyone in the world had it, a third of the population would be dead in a year" or something along those lines.* But no one takes it seriously. I'm at a very dark place right now. I'm seeing therapists and all that, but I've been in so much pain for so long. I guess you just have such an awesome outlook, I'd love to know what kept you fighting when things felt impossibly hard.

*-the site said "half", but it looks like it was actually bullshit. The accurate facts are that suicide is 10x higher with people with my illness.

thebossapplesauce43 karma

From what it sounds like, you're the one who should be doing an AMA. I've got nothing on what it seems you're going through. Just keep on keeping on. Things always get better, even if they have to get worse first.

torpedomon123 karma

Amazing. BTW, keep your hair short, and keep the sneer!

thebossapplesauce104 karma

haha thanks! My hair was always short pre-cancer so it shouldn't take long to get back to how I had it :)

Paladinltd56 karma

Well then if it's not too inappropriate may introduce you to /r/shorthairedhotties?

thebossapplesauce86 karma

Been there! I was a frequent poster pre-cancer because I always kept my hair short.

Iyamkonstantine32 karma

Girl you rock that pixie cut SO HARD

thebossapplesauce14 karma


riotous_jocundity115 karma

Congrats on beating cancer! Also, you've got fierce brow game.

thebossapplesauce98 karma

Thanks brah

Dcanseco106 karma

Thanks BROw

thebossapplesauce57 karma


I_Tickle_Niggers_110 karma

big deal , I survived being without internet almost 45 minutes the other day.

thebossapplesauce101 karma


jazerac81 karma

Are you more or less religious now?

thebossapplesauce509 karma

Good question. I didn't want to bring this up, but I lost my father halfway through chemo completely out of the blue in a motorcycle wreck. He was my biggest fan and always told me he'd switch places with me. I tell myself that he did - that in some alternate universe, I was supposed to be the one who died and he took my place. At his funeral, we played "simple man" and I hear that song all the time now, maybe because I'm just more receptive to it. It was actually playing DURING my final PET scan to see if I was cancer free. The tech forgot to turn off his radio and I could hear it playing while I was in the MRI machine. I don't really know where I stand spiritually but it sure is nice to think he's looking out for me.

BeerInTheBabySeat71 karma

Was there any change in how people treated you after your diagnosis?

thebossapplesauce102 karma

Nope. My friends and family were awesome throughout, but that was not a deviation from normal for them.

Mazen_Madrid69 karma

What do you think was the hardest part of having the disease?

thebossapplesauce202 karma

It was probably the fear of not knowing if I'd make it out alive. I'd be able to 'forget' about it for short periods of time and then the reality would dawn on me all over again. I remember my boyfriend and I went to see 'This is the End' in the middle of my chemo, and I just kind of got lost in the movie, but on the way out remembered I'm sick and might die. So I couldn't really enjoy things as much. It was like there was a giant storm cloud over my head all the time. That sucked. But now, I have that same realization, except it's that I'm cancer free. It hasn't really sunk in yet, so my default mindset is that of a sick person. Now I just keep realizing again that I'm not sick anymore. It's a wonderful feeling!

ArchangelPT40 karma

Did you face the possibility of death head on or did you just throw that on the back of your mind while doing the most to get better?

Edit: Oh and holy shit you pull off short hair really well

thebossapplesauce38 karma

I tried to throw it in the back of my mind but it had a way of making its way to the forefront all the time.

TheTalkingFist39 karma

How did you feel when you got the news you had cancer?

thebossapplesauce75 karma

Crushed, in disbelief, defeated.

downvotethiscontent34 karma


thebossapplesauce92 karma

I stopped looking at numbers and statistics long ago, so honestly I have no idea.

downvotethiscontent27 karma


thebossapplesauce60 karma

Yes. I will have scans frequently until the 5 year mark.

downvotethiscontent90 karma


_saladfingers_50 karma

op pls

thebossapplesauce44 karma


goosebyrd30 karma


What's your dog's name?

thebossapplesauce78 karma

My dog's name is Saber, as in light saber, as in light (saber) at the end of the tunnel. Also because my boyfriend and I were playing Killer Instinct on xbox and my favorite character was SaberWolf.

SevenIsTheShit28 karma

You are funny, play videogames,have a dog ....and fate had the nerve to give you cancer?!

thebossapplesauce41 karma

I'm a better person for it, so it's cool.

rle51629 karma

Do you still want to be an oncology nurse?

thebossapplesauce64 karma

Actually no. I'm working in a hospital now on the administrative side, and just being in the environment for the short while I've been there, I'm absolutely positive I do not want to be bedside. So I switched my major to health care admin.

molstern20 karma

What made you change your mind?

thebossapplesauce74 karma

I think I have PTSD or some variation. I just can't be in those rooms.

FrankieLyrical27 karma

Did you ever consider becoming the real life Heisenberg due to your cancer?

thebossapplesauce63 karma

Nah, I'm not the danger.

FrankieLyrical18 karma

But are you the one who knocks?

thebossapplesauce146 karma

I'm more of a door bell kinda gal

Sanityisoverrated124 karma

Did you have a bucket list of things you wanted to do in case you didn't beat the cancer you had? If so, will you still do them all?

I'm glad you're still with us.

thebossapplesauce47 karma

I wish I could say that I did, but not really. I just tried to be as normal as possible throughout. I guess the closest I came to it was wanting to train for and run a triathlon post chemo, and that's still in the works. Right now I just have to get my pre cancer body back!

y_u_no_russian24 karma

What kind if symptoms did you notice? How long was the shortness of breath there? Does cancer run in your family?

thebossapplesauce49 karma

Shortness of breath and lethargy. The shortness of breath was constant from around February to May when I was diagnosed. It was really bad on exertion. I remember I had a class on the third floor and in the beginning of the semester, I would take the stairs no problem, but as the semester wore on, it was getting more and more difficult for me to climb them. Cancer doesn't run in my family. Hodgkin's is one of those rare ones that doesn't have a genetic component (or that's what I'm told).

y_u_no_russian16 karma

I see so was the shortness of breath just when you tried doing something or was it there when you were just sitting and watching tv for example

thebossapplesauce21 karma

Sitting was okay, but I went get lightheaded upon standing.

joeshabatz23 karma

So Mordor..What's that like?

thebossapplesauce54 karma

It's actually pretty chill.

Cancerwarrior23 karma

I am also a young Stage IV cancer survivor. Treated with ABVD & escalated BEACOPP, both of which failed. I am now 16 months post stem cell transplant & still NED. Just wanted to say Hi and Rock on! Also virtual hugs!

thebossapplesauce10 karma

Go you! We had to look into stem cell transplantation. I have it all set in case things go south.

Nezmins21 karma

HOLY FUCK!! 26.000 for cancer treatment??? I'm so sorry :(!

thebossapplesauce71 karma

Oh man that's a very small portion. All total it was probably around 250k if I had to guess. Thankfully that bill was in error and I only ended up having to pay about a grand out of pocket.

keks6321 karma

Have you read The Fault in Our Stars by John Green?

thebossapplesauce20 karma

I have.

blowsshitup20 karma

My wife was diagnosed with breast cancer this past Monday. So far, it looks as though she caught it quite early, though we won't know for sure until after surgery. Due to her age, we have been advised that even though it seems likely that the cancer is currently confined to her breast, chemotherapy is advisable to ensure that we treat any cancer cells that may have gotten out, but haven't been detected.

What specific things would you have liked your partner to do as you went through the process you went through?

thebossapplesauce14 karma

Just be there. I wish there was some magical formula but there really isn't. Plus what I wanted isn't necessarily what she will want. Just talk to her.

CapnGibbens20 karma

How long were you diagnosed with stage 4 cancer?

thebossapplesauce42 karma

Diagnosed October 7, 2013, cancer free February 17, 2014.

ssigal19 karma

my mom was recently diagnosed with lung cancer (non smoker). they want to remove the lung, as radiation and chemo only has a 20% survival rate for her type and the area it is in. What advice can you pass along, I am devastated. So happy you have beat it, an inspiration to many I am sure.

thebossapplesauce21 karma

Oh man I'm so sorry. Remember that we have 0 control over what happens to us, only how we react to it. Stay strong, you and her both.

alexanatta16 karma

What do you think helped you the most? While on chemo and throughout the whole process did you change your diet or do anything different?

thebossapplesauce46 karma

I ate like a fucking hog. I was on steroids and my doctors just told me to eat all the time to keep my strength up. I obliged. Now I'm paying for it.

Moln001415 karma

Congrats on beating cancer!! Do you have to have a special diet post cancer at all?

thebossapplesauce45 karma

Yeah I'm low-carbing it and working out like a maniac to get my pre chemo body back. I used to be pretty athletic, then I was on steroids, and not the kind athletes take.

Ridinonacloud13 karma

For the sake of treating you like a normal human being, photo of your puppy please?

P.S. Good job kicking cancers ass!

thebossapplesauce5 karma

Check my submission history. I post pictures of him all the time.

sodium129 karma

How did the process of loosing hair affect you at the time?

Btw, sexy hair after four months.

thebossapplesauce14 karma

I shaved it all off myself before it fell out on its own.

life_pass8 karma

Do you play any instruments?

thebossapplesauce51 karma

I play the kazoo

apak328 karma

Do you have to live with any sort of complications as a result of the cancer?

thebossapplesauce9 karma

I still get occasional chest pain but that's about it.

Mitchenmanjensen7 karma

I always wonder how people can pay these things. That's a five-figure bill; does insurance cover that for you? Would I, a not-so-wealthy college student, be totally screwed if I were to find out that I have cancer?

Also, congrats. I've lost two family members to cancer in the past year alone. Shit's for real.

thebossapplesauce24 karma

That bills was sent to me in error and I'm not on the hook for that cost, thankfully. Insurance paid for all but about 1k. Do you have insurance? Are you under 26? If so, you can be covered my your parents' health plan. Otherwise, I'd suggest seeing what kind of health plan you can get through the affordable care act.

mcbeefy7 karma

Congratulations!!! Do you think it's true that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger?

thebossapplesauce9 karma

In a sense, yes.

caveezle6 karma

Dropping by to wish you congratulations on kicking cancer's ass. Also, you look gorgeous.

What did you name your puppy? What breed is it?

thebossapplesauce11 karma

He's a doberman named Saber. Right now we're working on getting him shaped up to compete in the show ring and hopefully get certified to be a hospital therapy dog.

Scarbane6 karma

Call me shallow, but I think you look really cute with short hair. Best of luck going forward!

thebossapplesauce4 karma


JakJakAttacks6 karma

What are your future plans to kick life's ass, cancer survivor?

thebossapplesauce11 karma

I'm now working in a hospital and would love to work with cancer patients in some way, shape or form.

bandit_six5 karma

What kind of therapies did you do? Chemo? Drugs? What was your diet like during the ordeal?

thebossapplesauce12 karma

I did escalated BEACOPP chemotherapy and a whole plethora of daily meds. My diet was just whatever I could get my hands on to keep strength up.

PostPostModernism5 karma

Would you rather fight one horse-sized cancer or 100 duck-sized cancers?

thebossapplesauce11 karma

1 horse sized cancer

crashman243 karma

did u smoke pot and what is your thought about weed for that purposes?

have a wonderfull life :)

thebossapplesauce7 karma

I had no need to smoke it, but it was there if I needed it. My SO is on medicinal marijuana. I think it's silly that so many people are serving life sentences for it and we just need to legalize it.

nsmbfan2 karma

How do you feel about Rick Simpson Oil?

thebossapplesauce28 karma

I try not to talk badly of things I haven't tried myself. I have never tried it, but I do have reservations about it. I'm science minded and of the belief that 'alternative' medicine isn't medicine.

nishankk1 karma

do you break bad like walter white?

thebossapplesauce2 karma

Well we all see where that got him, so no :)

smlybright1 karma

So if you could help someone look at life the way you do now, without them having to face death, what would you tell them?

thebossapplesauce1 karma

When you find yourself getting stressed about something, ask yourself if it will matter when you're 80.

mapleloafs1 karma

Did you hair grow back another color?

How did family take it seeing you on the hospital bed, did anyone ever burst out crying in front of you while visiting?

edit: nvm about second question, you mentioned you didn't get really thin & had a wig on.

thebossapplesauce2 karma

My hair's the same color.

dimstain1 karma

Congratulations. My grandma recently passed, so its great to hear about a survivor, well done.

Have people called you "brave" through your ordeal, or said "heroic"? If so, what do you feel about these adjectives being used to describe cancer patients?

thebossapplesauce2 karma

I've been called that. It feels silly though. My take on that - no, they're not really 'heroes' in the true sense of the word but who gives a shit? Cancer is hell in a handbasket, let them have their day.

Need2throw1 karma

What's on your list of things to kick the shit out of now?

thebossapplesauce1 karma

I'd love to get into boxing

AElFFIE1 karma

What was Mordor like? Do you know anything about the employment status?

thebossapplesauce2 karma

have you seen charlie the unicorn? That was actually shot in Mordor. lol

noknownallergies1 karma

As someone your age with an average income, I can't fathom the bills. Is this something you'll be paying off for years like a mortgage? Obviously that's not the most important thing here but I'm curious

thebossapplesauce2 karma

I had excellent insurance (I was under 26 so still under my parents' plan) and only had to pay about 1k out of pocket. The bill in my proof pic was sent to me in error.

Zaylos1 karma

I'm a huge defeatist even on trivial things. How did you get through the emotions?

thebossapplesauce2 karma

I just put my head down and ran, so to speak.

Lord_Disagree1 karma

Did it annoy you how people treated you before you were free from Cancer? Was there ever a time when you felt annoyed at the subtle changes in how people would normally act. As in, maybe refraining from saying things, or avoidance?

thebossapplesauce1 karma

I didn't notice a difference. However, I did not look like your typical cancer patient. I did not get dealthy thin and I always had a wig or hat on.

DrBoltz1 karma

Do you play any games?

thebossapplesauce1 karma

Just on my phone mostly

yepmeh0 karma

Is your blood type RH positive or RH negative?

thebossapplesauce4 karma

I don't understand the question? My blood type is O negative, if that helps.

zcmy-1 karma

Now that you've kicked cancer's butt,

would you get in a fight with 100 duck sized horses, or 1 horse sized duck?

thebossapplesauce8 karma

I'm a lover not a fighter.