I stabbed my middle/high school bully during the last quarter of my senior year three times. AMA
Why? Every day imagine this feeling.
You arrive at school and head to the breakfast line to get some food. You are so nervous about the day already starting out terrible due to the Bully and his posse. But you're lucky today - no outbursts.
You get your food, and sit down with your best buddies. You start to take the first bite of your food, and before it even entering your mouth it's smacked out of your hands, and you're called a queer, faggot, retard, loser, waste. Every day it was different.
There was pain in gym class which i had to retake my senior year due to FEAR in my freshmen year of taking it.
I even was in this program called "Shop". It's where kids went to another facility on a bus to learn a trade. I had to use the same bus as him due to our last names being close. Alphabetical order (Even if i tried sneaking on the other bus i'd just get in trouble)
When the kid would get on, or off the bus i'd get physically slapped, punched or pushed along with tons of name calling that was just hurtful. I remember specifially these things they would make with soda bottles where they would let all the air out, twitch it up to an extreme amount, seal the bottle and launch the cap off VERY hard hitting me in the back of the head.
Now recap that from your 6th grade year up until your senior year, and yes I tried talking to councilers who had it written down that I'd receive some sort of help - but it seemed like nothing helped. I had told the crooked principle, dean and numerous teachers, and with the exception of a FEW teachers it just seemed like me saying anything just got myself into more trouble with them.
With what? A friends pocket knife
Did he live? Yes I stabbed him in the lower part of his neck, his shoulder, and his side.
My consequences? I was under house arrest a month, probation 6 months, 6 years of hell on earth and not being able to even attend my graduation.
Did he bully me again? Nope - never saw him again after that day.
It happened like this..
During 7th period (Our final period) he kept throwing paper at me and cutting his throat with his finger. I kept looking away from him and holding onto that knife in my pocket... We get up to leave, and I'm thinking to my self "This shit is crazy, i'd never actually do something like that, haha"
Then all of a sudden he turns around, talks some shit and before I even have the chance to say anything he kicks me VERY hard in the nuts, and punches me so hard that my tooth actually goes through my lip. At that time I'm pushed backwards on my best friend into a door, he pushes me up and says "Get him!"
I black out there, but after I come to I'm standing there with blood on the floor, lockers and knife screaming "You will never bully anyone else again, you're done" and I just kept saying "You're threw with this shit!" "You're Done!" over, and over.
There were 50 or so kids circled around us in the hallway after it was done.
The most horrible experience of all was missing out on 99% of social activities during my middle, and high school time. I didn't even get to walk the stage during graduation, or even ATTEND it for that matter. I was the bad guy.
edit 1 I Just want to say thank you to everyone giving me their support, and kind words. It truly means a lot to me. I hope anyone else going through the same things I went through can get SOME SORT of help. Better help then I received at least.
edit 2 WOW this blew up WAY bigger then I thought it would have! I am taking a small break (11:48AM EST) Right now, I'll answer some more questions in a little bit.
edit 3 I'm back shortly - I'm answering as many questions as I can!
edit 4 Okay I have things to take care of - I have to call it quits for today. If this is still up tomorrow i'd be happy to answer more questions, and feel free to privately message me if you're being bullied, and just need someone to talk to. Have a nice day.