xxembercaprixx

Not great. My mental health is still horrible. I have borderline personality disorder (caused by trauma), anxiety, depression, and doctors debate whether or not I also have bipolar. I’m still trying to recover.

I would like to be able to recognize my personality patterns to better control my borderline personality disorder... my main goal in life right now is to heal.

I mean honestly, smoking weed. It’s like a medicine for my anxiety. It helps me calm down. Especially during a panic attack... I know it’s not 100% healthy but it could be worse. I also like to watch Daria... and regression helps as much as I’m ashamed to say it..

1) yes I go, but it’s not really helping. I’m trying as many meds as I can right now.

2) I have a hard time controlling my temper when it comes to my relationship, but I have a very loving and supportive boyfriend who understands my mental health problems. I’m very grateful for him.

3) he’s doing okay. He’s 17 now and I’m proud to say that he’s joining coast guard. It will really help him. I just wish he wasn’t living with my dad.

I used to write a lot in high school. It was a vent for me. Unfortunately since I graduated high school I don’t really have any motivation or interests anymore. I miss it a lot, but every time I try I just get disinterested. I still appreciate good grammar and well constructed sentences.

Also yes Daria is my spirit character. I love her.