I'm not sure what to say but life is tough, but there's joy in it. Sometimes it's hard to find the path to it, but you have to follow your internal guide.
I know it sounds cheesy but I've found it to be true.
I've had a sudden onset of an autoimmune condition that disfigured me in my early childhood.
It. Was. Rough.
The harshest thing was that I didn't realize just how much I wanted to be loved, but it distanced me from people, even little kids. That broke my heart a thousand times.
I never realized how much the human body just wants to be close to others. Even a hug. All this were gone, suddenly, I was far far away from feeling human.
Something that should be taken for granted, like air or food, was deprived from my body.
It wreaked havoc on my self esteem, what I could do. And I shut down my needs, cutting myself off. I wish I didn't, because it takes a while to heal.
But we all can. Heal. And in the process, I've seen strengths I never knew I had, and the importance that we all need each other to be alive and content.
That there is no such thing as an irrelevant person. That may seem like a platitude, but I assure you, I know and feel it to be true.
Biggest thing is find a way to express yourself, music, art, writing, movies. Whatever it is, and I guarantee you, you will find the inner voice that will give you contentment. (I love Rumi, Sufi poetry and day dreaming about math)
It will give you a way to connect with others.
Therapy, and other guidance is also useful, if at least to give pointers on different ways to look at things.
Don't worry about looks and what a woman should be out shouldn't. It's easier said than done, but, and I don't mean to condescend, its easy to feel that inadequacy when young.
Just because you feel it, doesn't mean it's true.
There's a greater love than looks, where you truly feel at home. It takes honesty and work, but it's assured.
I hope you find this well. I wish you the best. Be kind to yourself.
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Hey.
I'm not sure what to say but life is tough, but there's joy in it. Sometimes it's hard to find the path to it, but you have to follow your internal guide.
I know it sounds cheesy but I've found it to be true.
I've had a sudden onset of an autoimmune condition that disfigured me in my early childhood.
It. Was. Rough.
The harshest thing was that I didn't realize just how much I wanted to be loved, but it distanced me from people, even little kids. That broke my heart a thousand times.
I never realized how much the human body just wants to be close to others. Even a hug. All this were gone, suddenly, I was far far away from feeling human.
Something that should be taken for granted, like air or food, was deprived from my body.
It wreaked havoc on my self esteem, what I could do. And I shut down my needs, cutting myself off. I wish I didn't, because it takes a while to heal.
But we all can. Heal. And in the process, I've seen strengths I never knew I had, and the importance that we all need each other to be alive and content.
That there is no such thing as an irrelevant person. That may seem like a platitude, but I assure you, I know and feel it to be true.
Biggest thing is find a way to express yourself, music, art, writing, movies. Whatever it is, and I guarantee you, you will find the inner voice that will give you contentment. (I love Rumi, Sufi poetry and day dreaming about math)
It will give you a way to connect with others.
Therapy, and other guidance is also useful, if at least to give pointers on different ways to look at things.
Don't worry about looks and what a woman should be out shouldn't. It's easier said than done, but, and I don't mean to condescend, its easy to feel that inadequacy when young.
Just because you feel it, doesn't mean it's true.
There's a greater love than looks, where you truly feel at home. It takes honesty and work, but it's assured.
I hope you find this well. I wish you the best. Be kind to yourself.
(Adding a question to appease moderater-bot. Does this satisfy you?)
Edit: spelling
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