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Oh god. I’m also bipolar 1 as well as severely autistic and have been battling with the thought that despite how smart I KNOW I am, I’ll never be successful because of my shitty genetic luck. This nearly moved me to tears. I know I don’t know you and I also know all bipolar experiences are unique but I hope I’m not out of line to say I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! You’re beyond amazing! You’re an incredible person and a literal beacon of hope to everyone else who struggles with this fuckshit disorder.

Anyway, as for the AMA: How long did it take you before you were able to manage symptoms?

I’m 20 rn and have tried almost all available antipsychotics, several low dose ssris to manage my comorbid MDD, but nothing has really ever been able to prevent my volatile and sometimes violent mood swings complete with disassociation and mania-induced command hallucinations. Right now I’m receiving off label ketamine therapy and if that fails my next line of attack is lithium or other powerful mood stabilizers which I am TERRIFIED to try, because I usually get lucky enough to experience the worst side effects. Again I know this disorder is incredibly variable between people, but maybe hearing that you found something successful will give me the willpower to keep trying. Thank you so much, and again— you’re AMAZING. You give me and the rest of the community HOPE for our futures. :)

get lost. being “sick” as you so poorly put it means he has faced very specific obstacles that most of the world has NO experience battling. There’s no reason why he SHOULDN’T share his success and motivate others who might deal with the same disorder. Get your head out of your ass. NTM if being “sick” in that specific way only affects a tiny fraction of the population, it does in fact by definition make him special, just like people with heterochromia or albinism or any other difference are genetically special. Sorry this is news to you. Again, remove head from ass at earliest convenience.

damn, would you mind DM’ing me your experience? I feel real bummed bevause everyone says it’s like some miracle cure but for me ketamine seems to make me 200% worse, depressed and suicidal and in EXCRUCIATING pain like I haven’t been since I was 12-14 :( I’m only 3 treatments in, wondering if this is normal or if I’m having the worst possible reaction to it as I do with everything and i should just call it a day...