themoop78

My favorite intro to a porn ever:

Dude Filming: "You ever been with a white guy before?"

Black Girl: "No..." said shyly and smiling.

Dude Filming: "Well, after this you're going to go right back to black guys... this isn't going to be that great."

I laughed at the refreshing honesty.

Asks for love, gets ball sack instead.

Props.

"My anus is bleeding!" was stuck in my head for years.

All the more ironic when I developed hemorrhoids later in life.

"So where'd the years go?

All the time we had?

Being poor was not such a drag in hindsight

And you wonder why your father was so resigned

Now you don't wonder any more"

-Ascent of Stan by Ben Folds

Everything you have laid out (except for the lack of sex thing) is exactly how I feel, and how I think most people our age feel when they have achieved that "stable job." Stable job has a nice ring to it, but it doesn't properly describe how repetitive and boring life becomes even under what you consider to be ideal circumstances.

I have a great job. Not everyone can say that right now. I have to remind myself that I am in an enviable position that many people would kill for right now.

I have a great girl. Been together for 6 years, we have the same sense of humor, and she's fun to be around, but I have the same biological urges as every other dude out there, and I do find myself actively fighting against acting on them.

My pool of friends keeps shrinking. Life happens, as they say, and people get preoccupied with getting married, having kids, becoming more family centric. I work hard to keep the friends that I do have, but me trying to make new friends at this stage doesn't seem very realistic.

What about having kids? This is another thing I've been struggling with. The whole raising kids thing doesn't particularly appeal to me, but the older I get, the more I feel I'd like to pass on my knowledge and guide a few little meat bags through this world.

If I did have kids, I would MANDATE that they do what this guy did. Take a year off after college / high school and travel around the world. The experiences, the friendships, the places they'll see, all of those things will help them to develop into the best possible version of themselves that they are capable of. And they will become interesting people. And that's the best time to do it.

People like us... we got too much to lose. I worked my entire life to get to where I'm at. But am I happy? Would I be happier turning my back on some great shit for the chance of something better? What would be better? Freedom would be great, lack of responsibility would be great. Not answering to anyone would be great. But getting back what you got would be a very difficult thing. And you might just find at the end of you new adventure, that what you did in hindsight was make a terrible mistake.

I find beer festivals keep me on the level.

Best of luck man, I read your posts and complely related.

I'd personally like to hear any dirt you have on that Hawking fellow.