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If he doesn't answer this, to kind of jump in as a person whose experienced something similar (clinical death) -- there wasn't anything. It's more than that though. It's an intense, relaxing, serene feeling. It isn't staring at something, it's something that fades. One moment I was feeling intense pain, the next I went into physical relaxation and felt no pain and then my mind just was like, "It's time to sleep, sleep is good," and it feels soooo damn good. So damn good. It's so very, very comforting. Then it's just like being asleep, I guess. I mean, it was all just black. I wasn't even aware of the black. The only thing I remember is waking up again after I succumbed to my brain lulling into that sweet serene relaxing feeling.

However, living is damn awesome and I want to do it as long and awesome-ly as possible before I go back to the land of death.

Sigh. I'm a 34DD. I dream of getting a breast reduction, but I can never bring myself to seriously consider it. I don't have a lot of back pain, but it feels like my shoulders are always sore. Then, on top of that, my boobs are sore 85% of the time. I went to Victoria's Secret and got measured, but I can never seem to find a good bra. They either add padding (do not fucking want?) or they do the push up or they try to wrangle the girls in and push too much -- ugh. Basically, bra's are never comfortable not to mention if you're over a C all the bras are ugly and built for maximum support. Can't one have both maximum support and cute bras? Then going without a bra is just impossible cause the girls go everywhere and end up being sore then too.

.. Basically, fuck. Part of me wants this surgery and the other part of me is terrified of going under anesthesia and dying because I wanted smaller boobs.

T___T ... Also, your nipples were fine before, but I totally love what they did. I wish mine were like that... :(

Edit: Thank you for all the replies everyone! I found out I'm a 31I and not a 34DD. This is based off the measuring guideline that was linked by schwarzle ! I'm going to be going to Nordstroms (or other specialty bra store) to get a proper fitting this weekend. Also, thanks for your suggestions of Bravissimo, Soma, and BareNecessities!

You are all amazing and I can't wait to see if this makes life easier and my shoulders way less sore :)!

.. I am so jealous. I'm a Systems Admin and I dream of having a job like that one day. :(

I can give you a few different reasons. I'm an uncontrolled chronic asthmatic whose spent a ridiculous amount of time in the hospital / with doctors and I can break it down for you why I dislike most doctors. This may not be true for everyone, but you asked the question, so maybe it would be helpful (or not?) if I outlined why I struggle with them.

1) Ego. Check it at the door. Your patients can tell. I've had a doctor refer to himself as the "big kahuna" and also ask why I'd have a nebulizer in addition to an inhaler -- as if he knew more than my pulmonologist. Or me. Seriously. You're battin' against 18 years of experience and education at that point, and you think you know more than me on the basics of treating an asthma attack? Mad disrespect.

2) Listening. This is a weird one, because there's lots of components. On one side, as a doctor, you are thinking simultaneously while receiving information from a patient, but it's so easy to spot when someone has stopped listening to you, which can come off as not caring. Also, speaking. When I'm 16, and I'm having the attack, I expect you to look at and talk to me. Not my mother. It doesn't matter, she's not the one whose body is sieging. Look at me. TALK TO ME. I can't tell you how many doctors didn't have the basic respect to look at me and tell me what was happening.

My favorite doctor of all time, the one I respect the most, was the first to always be talking to me first, any my mother second.

3) Ask me BEFORE bringing your residents in if I mind. You know what, usually not, but sometimes? Sometimes after I've had a particularly rough night I don't want 8 people putting their cold stethoscopes on my very tired, and worn out chest. I already feel terrible without feeling on display.

4) Trust. It's something that's built, if you don't bother to try and build it, especially if I'm trying, I'm going to resent you. I'm not a clipboard. I'm not a paper. Learn my name without the chart, then I'll be surprised.

There's a lot of other reasons, like hearing doctors talk about my "double insurance", etc throughout time, but in general, I don't trust doctors and I've also just had too many shitty ones who couldn't diagnose their way out of a paper bag for me to feel comfortable with doctors. I have a stand-off relationship at first, that ca be bridged with time, usually.

C.. can I have your job? I want to verify awesome celebrities :(

I double as a Linux Admin, but the primary focus would be celebrities, right!?!