thatpropgirl

It wasn’t “stupid” of you. Stop beating yourself up. It was fear and hopefulness — your doc told you it was fine and you WANTED it to be fine. That’s an almost impossible combination to overcome. Nobody WANTS to have cancer and if a doc says “nah don’t worry” it’s really a lot easier to continue telling yourself “it’s ok—a doctor told me so.”

Be kind to yourself. This is NOT your fault. You are NOT stupid for having waited. You are human. Best wishes. Make your doctor give you a prescription to stop worrying and work on life as it is now. This is life and you’re alive. Without that bag you’d be dead now or soon. The bag is your lifeline and you were SMART to do the hard thing and get it done. Be well. Be kind to yourself.

-a fellow cancer survivor constantly living in small amounts of fear.

Try a charity hospital.

Go to a normal hospital, explain the situation, and ask to be put on a payment plan.

All other options on the table, this is literally worth maxing your credit cards and ruining your credit over. You could die. Do you really wanna die with $500 still in your pocket because you couldn’t afford the $800 colonoscopy?