splice_my_genes

I left as well and couldn't be happier. If you are a truly moral person and stand up against injustice, then keep it up. The community needs more people like that. But understand that a fundamentalist insular society has an inherent power structure, and there are many many victims. Gay people and women (others as well), are not only marginalized, but many of them are severely oppressed and abused. Not to mention the atrocious xenophobia, labeling all non Jews as less human...I have witnessed so much injustice, and barely a peep from those that claim to care so very much (think of the important rabbis and their wives). As much as they pretend to be righteous, the community stays silent. Be one of the vocal ones. Lord knows there aren't enough of them

Hey. Just some advice for things to do.

You can take up sketching. Just need pencils and paper. Or you can start looking into the plant life around you. You just need the outdoors and the Internet. There are also definitely ebooks you can download for free via torrent, if you want to get into literature. There are also a shitton of free courses/lectures online from big universities ranging from history to psychology. And there are plenty of podcasts that are either humorous, informative, or both. You can also get into running, though you would eventually need to buy a good pair of running shoes. But I think in general being outdoors is good. Maybe start tree climbing (I'm not kidding), or finding places nearby to volunteer. Some areas have free meditation groups, dance groups, etc. If you can ever get the money for a skateboard, there's that. You can easily get one for between 30 and 50 bucks. Which is definitely money but if you can ever save for that or get your dad to buy you one, it'll be super fun. You can also learn how to make things from trash, like a diy engineer thing. I personally have never tried it but I know people often do that sort of thing. I'm sure there's an online community for it. You can also buy a ukelele for 25 to 30 bucks. That's always great, music is beautiful therapy and creative expression changes a lot.

Hope that helped!