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No real question here, using your AMA as therapy also I guess. Sharing my experience with you since you are brave enough to share with us. Least I could do for a service member. So thank you. Sincerely.

I have a very close friend with PTSD, Marine, served 2 tours, Iraq/Afghanistan. He drank himself homeless and has many of the issues you are sharing with us today. Eventually he got heavily involved with equine (horses) therapy. He and many of his battle buddies have had great success involving animals in their therapy. Just throwing it out there. I myself (a firefighter) also have suffered from PTSD since the Sept 11th attacks. What helps me with my anger/anxiety, is awareness. (of course easier said than done) Awareness of the little things in life, really FEEL my body and be aware of the building stress, I cope by burning off little bits of steam at a time so as not to blow-up. It can be as simple as taking a moment to have a deep breath (or 3), getting a massage or just smiling at a sunny day. But I must burn a little off consciously everyday or i'd lose it. I also remind myself it's okay to have a bad day, it's okay to be upset, and its okay to struggle. Cheers to you my friend, all the best.

TL;DR; You're not alone brother, you're a good person, great AMA, you are helping others by sharing your struggle, myself included.

I would inquire with the wife about the happy ending service, it add's a certain finishing quality to the massage experience. Remind her it's all for your health, win/win!