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I've struggled w/ depression and anxiety for 15 years. I've been mostly stable but hit another road block and really really been struggling the last few months.

I started counseling today but I'm not sure we really mesh. How do I know if it's her or if I'm just reacting to things I don't want to hear? How many sessions does it take to decide that you don't mesh?

Thanks !

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I'm not sure. She talks a lot. She smiles too much.

I think it's probably me. I'm in a very negative space and not taking encouragement very well. (ie, everyone keeps telling me I need to take "baby steps" and how it's so good I can get out of bed now ... I've been majorly depressed for at least 3 months now and I'm sick of hearing how great I'm doing ... If i was doing so great, why do I keep having thoughts of hurting myself?). I have bad experiences w/ previous attempts at therapy and I think i'm looking for an 'out' ...

I feel not ready for therapy yet but that doesn't even make sense ... not even to me.

Thank you !!