prashantveerman

I'm a highly ambitious person but for the past 5 years, i've been doing the same thing over and over again:

I make huge plans of conquering the world and all, than i right them on a paper, than pick the first goal i've to achieve and than draw a daily routine i need to follow to achieve that goal. And than i don't do anything at all. Sometimes i follow that routine for a day or two but than it all goes back to the same. I know what i need to do, i know how i need to do it but i just don't do it. And i feel terrible about it, i'm eating myself from the inside, always very unhappy, and on top of that i explicitly start doing things that i must not do, like eating bad things, binge watching anything at all while crying from the inside for why i'm not doing what i'm supposed to do. Than, i take a pen and draw the same plan again and follow the same procrastination pattern. I've notebooks and stacks of paper filled with plans of a great career from the past 5 years but i have not achieved a thing that i ever wrote down in them.

What should i do?

thanks a lot.