payneforpleasure

Ben moé tou debord

Hi Kyle ! Thanks for doing this AMA.

How do you cope with the fact that you will never see/speak with/hug your mum again?

I am an orphan now, I’ve lost both my parents 10 months appart. I don’t really care about my father since I never really liked him. He was not a good person. But for my mother it’s an other story since I was a mama’s little boy.

I’ve lost her last year to an agressive esophagus cancer. She died within 6 weeks after the diagnostic and was a vegetable in the hospital for 2 weeks following a sudden heart attack. I have a really hard time because it went too fast for me. No last hug, love you or some sort of goodbye.

All I have now is two videos of 10 years ago of her laughing hysterically while reading horrible english to french translations. I was secretly recording her at the time telling me that it would be a nice souvenir when she will inevitably pass away. I’ve watched them only once because it still hurt me.

I do feel your pain and wish the best for you brother.