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I have extreme and utmost respect for you making the best of an unspeakably horrible situation. "Adversity introduces a man to himself." I wish you all the best.

Your beautiful answer brought me to tears. I have discovered the same truth through meditation, although getting there seems to be a lifelong work. Thank you for sharing this here.

Not to be a jerk, but marinade is a noun and marinate is the verb you are looking for.