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Oddly enough, there was. In my vlog (linked above) you'll notice I said that before we jumped, he pointed the GoPro at me and asked if I had any last words. Me being a tosser, said "Hope my parachute opens". My dark sense of humour worked against me it would seem. As we were falling I asked "Are we gonna die?" and he just said he didn't know. That's when I really had accepted my fate.

I haven't seen or made contact with him since that day.

We half-landed in a lake on a golf course and my fall was partly broken by my instructor. I believe he broke his legs and pelvis. That and some sort of divine protection maybe?

I could barely register the impact. I was heavily winded and couldn't breathe. We had slid into a lake and the parachute canopy was on top of my instructor and I, who I was still harnessed to. He was knocked out and unresponsive. I just remember not being able to feel most of my body and I used all my strength to try and wake up my instructor. I was shaking him and praying he would wake up because I was convinced that he was dead, that it was my fault and that I was a paraplegic. After what felt like forever, we were found by three golfers (we landed on a golf course) and I was lifted into the back of an ambulance while my family cried and shouted to me from the outside. All of this while in absolute agony. The pain was incredibly excruciating. On the way to the hospital I just kept crying and crying. I was totally hysterical and in shock. It was very much a mind fuck that I couldn't even process.

Thanks! You mean during the fall? I honestly thought I was gone. I had fully accepted death and it felt so certain that I started to feel guilt for my family and what I was leaving behind. It was likely only a minute of falling, but in that short time I had prepared for the pain and for my death. I didn't see any other outcome besides dying.

Honestly, I'm scared. It's confronting. I will do it very soon but right now I need to accept the past and make sure I'm full of my faculties before we reunite.