midiocre128

Not to sound rude or krass but has it never occured to you to take your life? Just to avoid the pain and the hardship you knew must follow?

Edit: looking through other posts I've kinda found the answer. So you tried to cope on your own and finally realised only professional psychological therapy will help you out. What event made you admit to it? Was it a click-like moment or was it a steady downwards process when you finally realised to step on the break?

Thanks for the reply and hats off to you! One strong mofo and a noble hero too if I might add. You deserve to spend those years as the happiest a person could be. I wish you the greatest of luck that it ain't just a couple years. Stay strong and all the love to ya <3