meldiwin

My I ask how old are you? I feel I am going to die, I will hit 30 in two days, I am lecturer at university and I hate myself

I am hosting a robotics podcast since two years because I wanted to heal after my traumatic experience at academia, and still in and doing podcast aside, but I feel it that great, few liked not many, and to be honest I wish I can get the basic income out of podcast just to have the freedom and do the things that matters me, I dont know if you can give me advices? Is that normal that some people hate your podcast