lustyoccultist

It is possible that more positive cognition patterns such as happiness or perhaps even the "flow" state are directly affected by gut flora. We have evolved with our gut bacteria for so long that to liberate yourself from it, if such a thing were possible, may unintentionally sever you from a nicer of side of your humanity that you may admire or value.

But I do agree that ultimately, we are conciousness. That is what we are. But assuming conciousness can transcend the body, I feel like humanity doesn't have sure enough answers to the questions of, "What is conciousness?" "What happens to it when I die?" or "How much of my conciousness is influenced by my physical body?" to make me want to transcend my body rather than working within it to meet a more realistic end that I desire.

You seem like a pretty deep individual and like you have done quite a bit of thinking.

I replied to some of your other comments but ultimately, especially in regards to this comment, I want to tell you that you really need to go out and know people. I really think it could be good for you.

And when I say know people, I mean intimately know them. I think getting to know people to their core could feed some of this emptiness you're feeling. May not feel good or seem counterproductive but trust me, it is good in lots of ways.

And don't even worry about how you'll look. You're already hikkiomori and you're a former model. You do not have much to lose IMO by putting yourself out there. You are perhaps one of the most beautiful men in Japan that could approach another human. Beauty placates and relaxes people. So as long as you're very polite, I think you could go outside and interact in ANY other sort of way and be accepted so long as A.) you're polite and B.) not sexually forward. Those are the two big things to keep in mind.

Not sure if you know this but at least in my experience, beauty is an amazing social lubricant for most other people and they look past an awful lot when they are gazing upon an attractive person. It is just how we are built. I'd use that beauty of yours as a tool to interact with people in ways that you normally would not just to see what happens and to feel a sense of liberation from what I would imagine is an oppressive culture of show and status. I know enough about Japan to know that is a problem not only you but everyone else faces much to everyone's detriment.

Be outside of it. Be yourself. Just be polite.