lostinlupata

Did you ever find yourself just disgusted with the men and people partying around you? I was a dancer for almost 20 years, (errr stripper is probably a more relevant term), but anyway..... I found as I went along, I grew more and more insecure and hateful and completely disgusted by the people that patronized the venue. Maybe I'm just weird, but I feel like there is this mentality of degradation hidden behind the flashing lights, sexy costumes and catchy music. I just kinda got to this point where I asked myself? Is the money even worth it anymore? Am I going crazy? Do I still love my job? I went into work one day and just couldnt even do it anymore. All I saw were the swollen fat faces of alcoholic men whose wives had divorced them for obvious reasons...... I never went back. I've had old friends/fellow dancers just look at me like I'm crazy for leaving when I did, but all I could see in my mind were horrible men with horrible intentions and I was done with "entertaining" them. I guess that makes me kind of a weirdo? Maybe it's just me, but I feel like you have a similar mind set in that regard....... Whatever the case, leaving when I did opened me up to a whole new world of awesome. Now? I'm a sound engineer, there are still hurdles, I work in a very male dominated field so it is constant competition, but I feel like my past kind of gave me the background I needed to face it head on. Would you say that your experience in the Mansion helped you become stronger?

Well thankyou! Both for the response and the words of encouragement. I look forward to picking up a copy of your book. I watched your show often and said to myself, "she's gonna be running that place soon" Not gonna lie, it's pretty awesome to see you moving onto bigger and better things. TV junkie? Ok yes I am LOL. Female empowerment? I think you have that down pat and it is inspiring! Thanks again for the response. Honestly did not think you'd even see my question! <3 much love!