lifeproofbionicwoman

I am a fierce advocate for medical marijuana. At one point I was taking 22 different medications a day. For pain, depression, anxiety side effects you name it. Levels were starting to toxify my liver and kidneys so my doctor recommended cutting medications. Usually thats fine except I had been on narcotics since the accident and my pain level hasnt changed. I feel like medical marijuana is a much safer option to those who live in states accessible to it. Its the only "medication" I take now with the exception of antibiotics when im sick lol

Actually, they never found one of my legs. I like to joke a coyote ran off with it. So, theres that.

Here's some dead honesty, I have a disassociation with my accident and processing it emotionally thats why often I probably sound like a robot recalling what I know.. My EMDR therapist is one of the best in the best in the country and we start trauma processing in January. My mental block is like a brick wall I am disassembling and this writing it-sharing it and answering questions about it is forcing me to associate with it. Meditation--and staying busy helps as well.

I dont know what to believe. The reality of it is I know for a fact I didnt put myself on those tracks. All I know is what I remember and what immediate witnesses and my family have told me or witnessed as well. It was before his suicide that I asked for the sheriffs office to be pressed, and upon finding out of his death I was absolutely shocked, confused, filled with grief. Every day I think of him and grieve him and wonder. I dont know much of his suicide other than the phone call I received and I have no way of knowing if it was a tragic thing on its own.

haha im from the midwest, it means I'm doing good; Hanging in there!