kirkjohn1111

Hey alex. Glad to make your acquaintance. I feel like a total dick but id like your opinion. Im 45. Big fella, 285lbs. Awesome wife, awesome life, healthy so far. Make good money, few toys in the driveway, savings account, couple dogs, great step kids, self employed...basically i have the situation many would be jealous of. Heres where i need advice. Im not happy at all. Depressed alot, no luster, pretty negative outlook for the most part. Job pays good but burns me out, Ive made a gratitude list. So many wonderful things to be super happy about, so many opportunities ive taken hold of but still feel sad and alone. I know there will be a time soon when i wished i had done something different or made life changes. I could be hit by a bus tomorrow. Who knows when the end will come for any of us. What do i need to know to make changes? What do you wish you had done? Is life about saying to hell with it and doing what makes us happy? Or is it a balance of that and supporting ourselves and family?

Thanks so much. I do work too much. Sometimes i go 3 days and 2 nights straight without sleep. Little naps. I have contracted for the same company for over 4 years now. Hours i work are pretty much expected at this point. I just got used to it.

My line of work is all i know. I have no formal training or schooling. To switch now would probably leave me stocking shelves or working at home depot which is absolutely fine, im just willing to bet id end up kicking my ass. Who knows, maybe not tho...the extra family time may make me feel better. Guess im just scared to take that step, really no going back after that. My happiest place in my heart is with my wife of 15 years. I Always think there will be lots of time for that, but who knows when one of us ends up in a different situation such as yours. Just in the process of evaluating my life now? Lol. Thanks again, i wish u all the best and happiness.