gotbeefpudding

i tried but i started and got "im seeing... the space behind my eyelid? the skin? wat?" then i stopped because i felt like an idiot

Huh I never thought about that... It must've been like a slap in the face for gay people

That sounds really hard dude. I'd recommend seeking out a councillor to talk about this stuff in a protected professional environment. You deserve it.

I hope there are mental health services where you reside

Prob just has a massive mental block to get over. Being 34 and a virgin is probably hard to deal with mentally.

I hope the dude finds happiness.

Not that there is anything wrong with masturbating but how often do you do it? Is your sex life healthy?

If you aren't giving your gf attention and are opting to masturbate as an example, I can see why she's upset