gakule

Late 20's (first time I've used that to describe my age, RIP), 4 kids, married, full time job.. I get 4-5 myself. Mainly self imposed because I like my gaming hobby more than I like sleeping.

Has he ever held you upside down like a bowling ball?

When you handle 2 decks do they split the cost or do you charge double?

Blink twice if she's reading over your shoulder.

I'm obviously not the person hosting the AMA, but

I'd feel like it was just an excuse

This is a holdover view from people who didn't understand, or couldn't comprehend, the concept of neurodivergence raising you. It's only an excuse if you let it continue to affect you without working to address it!

I don't want to be autistic

Whether you are or aren't - nothing is going to change just because you're diagnosed. It's up to you whether you want to disclose what you are or aren't, but ultimately I think this is your own projection of an insecurity more than anything.

My advice is that the sooner you understand the root causes of your issues - be it Autism, ADHD, or just general depression even - the sooner you can work to cope with them in productive ways. I look at it this way - being 43, you're about half-way through your generally projected working life. Taking the steps to address whatever difficulties you have will save you from struggles in the back half - stigma be damned.

Best of luck!