fordmarkII

Hey. I suffer from occasional momentary depersonalization, felt like making up a term for myself.. Any reasons this happens? I've been experiencing these episodes, if you will, since I was about 20. Now 23

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The first experiences/episodes I had with depersonal/realization was that reality just looked transparent. I also couldn't figure out why I didn't feel like myself, I felt like my mind was separated from my body and when I'd look at my hands they didn't look like they're mine anymore.

I felt like I was of a different existence or entity, observing through my body's eyes. A stranger to my own body. Nothing had meaning or attachment through thoughts and feelings, both physical and emotional. My friend used to go through the same thing, and when we first talked about it he described it as an absurd reality.

For e.g. I could stand in the middle of a street and get hit by a car and not feel the true danger as I'm about to get hit. I haven't done that though, also the idea of murder and anything to do with the danger of people's lives can be rationalized into being done. It's ridiculous.

Maybe the simplest way of putting is that it's like being punched in the face and never recovering from the shock, except there was no punch to begin with?..

My episodes last between 5 minutes to several hours at random times of the year, used to be at random times of the week. Sometimes the experience is more of a positive high, maybe due to you having a good time doing something which is the better side to it. Still kinda sucks.

Thanks for this. I wrote one up just then online.

xo

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