drpotatoe

I can tell you about myself if you're interested. I was very much atheist before my experience with aya, and now I can't be an atheist, no matter how hard I try. First, comes the empathetic awareness. Feeling the pain and suffering of humanity and just accepting all of that within you. And crying and crying. I'm very empathetic now, I can't help it. If my SO is upset, I cry with her. I can't not feel her pain. I cry when I see homeless people sometimes. I cry thinking about the Iraq war at night sometimes. Next, comes these shape-shifting entities that blow your mind, and are somehow inexplicable and irrational and seemingly impossible. But this is the god experience:

I realized that we are all part of this greater organism. Like we are the cells, or fruiting bodies. It's this omnipresent white light, filled with unconditional love. It looks like a plant, like an organism, tree-branch fractal patterns which come out, and we are like the ends of those tree-branches. This organism is billions of years old, and could not communicate to us. We are it. When we communicate, we are it communicating, because it is not separate from us. It is pure energy, and everything we experience is just a different frequency within that energetic field. And it is consciousness; awareness. The source of existence, the greater being that we exist within.

Music is important. Very important. The vibe of the music, is very important. The only reason that the shamans use drums and chanting, is because they lived in a tribe in the amazon until 50 years ago. The music could be anything, but the emotional content and purpose of the music is important, because you have synethsesia, and the music 'opens doorways within the mind', and you see and feel and experience the music on another level. Without the music, there is no guidance. It's like you are a piece of dust being carried in the wind, or drowning in a raging river without a boat.

Damn bro. I was told STRONGLY told by the spirits not to do anything like this again when I tripped shrooms with a group of 5 in the forest one time. One dude almost went suicidal for a day, but he's normal now. We're talking shrooms, not aya, I would never have the courage to do aya outside of ritual. It opens you up to aspects of reality that we may not be prepared to handle.

Thank you for the reply :) That's scary, although I could see some potential merit in the darkness of the experience. I've experienced aya 3 times, and it was life-changing for me, in very positive ways. I've also realized that overcoming darkness progresses the soul and can be very positive, but it can also be negative. So the datura aya scares me, and intrigues me at the same time, because it seems very powerful, but the territory seems darker.

Do you think the Shimbre brew may have been laced with the datura-esc relative, i forget the name?