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No it wasn't enjoyable at all.

And no, I will not cam or do anything related to this industry again. I have a normal 9-5 type job now and am happy where I'm at.

Great question! I'm doing this for a few reasons. One being that the worst is over. Everyone in my life saw the video and went through the ordeal when it was first released. Very little damage can be done now. Two being, I believe that it is so important for me to clear this whole GDP situation up. When my video was first released, I scrolled through countless porn sites, tumblr, and reddit threads reading horrible things about myself. I've also read horrible things about other girls from GDP. People are a little too quick to judge the girls that chose to do this, mainly out of not realizing that this faulty decision making process could have been ANYONE. And last, I think it's so important to put a story and a face to a video like this so people know that the girl in the video is in fact another person with feelings. I hope this reaches the people who made jokes and talked shit about me when the video first came out and more importantly, reaches the other girls who have done this or are going through GDP recruitment now. To all the girls who have done videos with GDP, I hope you're doing well and I hope you're okay.

I felt sad after the first event. I cried... I have done a second video. I've answered this previously. I did the second video in October of 2016, again I was not with anyone but was in school and needed to make a final payment for my tuition. I've had opportunities to go back to GDP but absolutely never will do anything like the sort again.

The second video really made me realize how fucked up everything was. I'd never return after that filming.

Absolutely not. There was a lot of lying and smoke and mirrors leading up to the actual filming... Which I'm sure will be addressed later.

During filming I was beyond uncomfortable both physically and emotionally and cried in both scenes and they neither stopped or even gave me a break. I was emotionally uncomfortable mainly due to the fact that they kept making me film despite me being physically uncomfortable.

After filming, the actor who is also the main producer (I believe) was extremely creepy and disrespectful.

I responded in another post.

Dre was shady the entire time, from the hiring process until the very end when I was dropped off at the airport. The entire time he pretended to be 'Jonathon' the 'boss'. During the initial hiring, I facetimed 'Jonathon' on set who obviously was Dre, the male model who picked me up from the airport upon arrival. He offered me marijuana and alcohol preceding the shoot. And then after, insisted he stay in my hotel room. He also filmed my solo scene for Girls Do Toys and then after we were done he asked if I was going to 'properly thank him' which I then verbally said thank you to which he responded angrily.

Also, while filming on set, during the breaks/when we weren't filming, Dre would repeatedly push himself onto me.

That's because I was EXTREMELY uncomfortable. It was not an erotic experience in the slightest. At the end of my first video was a short anal scene, which I didn't really want to do. But they pitched it to me as if I had to either raw Dre (the actor) or do anal. I chose covered anal over AIDS.

No I haven't really considered it but I definitely have several options for mental health help.