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I'm so glad you got out of there! I had a friend high as a kite and blackout drunk that tried almost the same thing. He tried undressing me several times, hands down my pants, etc. But I knew he'd not rape me and I only put up with it because I knew he was so far gone and probably didn't register all the "no's" I kept saying (and I was drunk enough to not drive for a few hours and figuring out why uber was broken on my phone was too hard for me in that state) I can't imagine how it works feel knowing he'd have raped me and how scary that must have been for you.

I'm truly glad you're ok! It hit me pretty hard but I think that's more because I lost all trust in one of the few friends I have vs me being scared for my safety. It was definitely sexual assault but I got over that part fairly easy because I knew he'd not have tried actual rape. /shudder why do some people have to be so shitty?

Definitely! Learn from everything, right? And honestly knowing that others have been raped and in much worse situations made this more like when you almost get in a car wreck but avoid it, you know? You still feel all those feelings on a smaller degree but you're just thankful it want worse knowing how it effects those that do have it worse. But honestly I think my true blessing was realizing that I needed to be more disciplined with how I party, who with, etc. I think it might have well prevented me from being in a situation where the worst could happen because now I have rules in place that will prevent most foreseeable issues.