Wu-TangJedi

My mother passed away recently, and since then I've been plagued by all kinds of panicky fears. I'm afraid to drive, I feel like I might pass out behind the wheel which makes me even more afraid to drive, my heart beats weirdly sometimes, which makes me anxious even though I've been to a doctor who took blood work and did scans to prove nothing is wrong with me cardiovascularly. And I constantly have a knot on under my sternum of that feeling like something is wrong, which never really goes away and makes me feel like breathing is super uncomfortable.

When I focus to meditate, those things just get worse, not better. I've mediated through some weird ailments before, with fantastic results. But this stuff is just completely next level. How can I really sooth this stuff if the only salve I have kinda makes it worse? Medication is out of the question for me as well, as I'm in addiction recovery, and would really really really really really really not wanna chance opening up that can of worms again.

Any advice?

I actually am sensitive to ASMR, and when I can get my body to do it (or yawn) I begin to feel much better. I will give you video a try as soon as I can!

Just listened to it while getting my car serviced at the dealership and it was delightful experience. I have to tell you this- I've never seen your face before, ever. After the video was complete I I checked out your page and saw you for the first time, and it's exactly who I saw during the mediation when you had me visualize a guide!

I appreciate the sentiment. Even almost a year later I'm somewhat hesitant to bring it up unless necessary. I appreciated your prompt response to my question!

93 brother :)