Vogey

My cousin killed himself in October, he too was disabled with PTSD from Iraq. Whatever you do, stay strong man.

Is your interest in social skills a result of your aspergers? Like aren't aspergs really dedicated/fixated on one thing?

I don't think i would be able to handle the feeling of being locked in. How extreme is the feeling of being unable to move your body? I get really panicky just thinking about it.

I wouldn't let that hold me back. I can still try.

My older sister had a benign one too when she was a child, she had several strokes and stopped breathing, also nearly died of sepsis. She still has a cerebral shunt to this day,(that is a passage that drains spinal fluid from the skull) but doesn't need it anymore.

Now, as an adult you would never know anything was ever wrong with her, but it still impacted her capabilities quite a bit. I'd say she's got the mental functioning of a permanent 11-13 year old, but sometimes more, sometimes when i'm talking to her, i feel like i'm talking to someone who is extremely sharp, other times i feel like i'm talking to a child. I empathize with your situation deeply and i'm sorry you had to go through this. I can tell you're not as bad as my sister, but how would you say this has impacted your cognitive abilities if at all? and if so, do your goals/ambitions remain the same? Just from reading i can tell you're very sharp.