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I am doing a Research paper on the Hubble Space Telescope right now. anything you could tell me that the NASA sites wouldn't have?

I agree, what you're probably experiencing is some sort of mental disorder. If it can be identified, and it can, then you can be treated. I would recommend talking to a doctor and/or counseling psychologist when you can, and best of luck to you, you seem like a good person. PM me if you have any questions on mental disorders, I'll do my best to help.