Tharoth

Honestly? Not great. A few weeks ago I developed a hernia next to the stoma which adds to the pain (the stoma always kinda 'throbs') and if it gets worse and causes a blockage will require more surgery.

Everywhere I go I hear stories of "The cancer came back and took their life", TV, Movies, general chatter, even one of my friends lost their mother last month to cancer but he said how he was happy the surgery she had gave them another 3 years together, so I'm constantly thinking now 'When will it be back' and there is no way to stop worrying about it as I have this thing attached to my stomach which is impossible to not be a reminder.

Weirdly I get 'phantom poop' urges, the surgeons said to expect it but to be sure never to 'push' cause yeah anything coming out of there would be super bad.

But I don't miss popping no haha

lol, prob one of the new people that has never used my phone while on the toilet.

When I say blood I mean a LOT of blood, like I was peeing bloody from my arse if I'm honest.

At first my doctor said it's normal for people to have a little bloody sometimes but this was a LOT.

Otherwise though, it wasn't too bad, it felt like random cramps or just feeling a little sick (like when you've eaten something bad) but it felt lower than my stomach.

That's probably one of the scary bits, it wasn't an extreme pain just a 'sick' feeling, but the amount of blood was the giveaway

I did tell my doctor about it, but she assumed when I said I noticed blood I was just having a little bit every now and again, I'd had hemimerids before so I knocked it up to that.

It was stupid of me to wait that long I agree, but I thought I was over reacting, the point of this AMA was hopefully someone may read it an not wait that long or if a doctor says a little every now and again is fine and you know it's a lot then push for it to be checked.

End result, yep I was dumb to wait 2 years, I agree fully mate, but it was a mix of me thinking it was something else and part fear I guess.