Steam__Engenius

Same. Sounds really scarily similar to myself. I was diagnosed with BPD but it was redacted after I took an intensive test. Definitely something abnormal in my emotional patterns but this is the closest I've ever seen someone else describe theirs!

Did you find any way to combat your pain? Or mental techniques to manage it?

Thanks for replying! How do you feel about the diagnosis? My partner's mum is a therapist and she's expressed concern with BPD being used as a blanket diagnosis. I've noticed a much higher proportion of women are given it than men, and I was diagnosed after I had a quick (very hungover - I was in a really bad mood) interview with a much older man who didn't seem to like me much. BPD feels like it's a kind of witch hunt - a modern day hysteria. I had BPD group therapy once a week for a year and noticed a massive divide between people who seemed depressed, or a bit anxious and struggled with confrontation and their self confidence and three of four people who seemed to have traits of narcissism and would dominate the conversation and steer group discussions around themselves. It was really hard to put these people with massively different behaviours under the same diagnosis. It felt like a cheap way for an overburdened health system to cater to large groups of people with a few overlapping issues.

This idea of camouflage - do you mean when you're with different people you act certain ways? I've never heard that term before. One of the questions they ask in a BPD test is whether you change your behaviour around different people. This just seems really normal to me.

I noticed OP mentioned that she thought people didn't like her when really they just had their own problems. I'm not trying to assume things about you but do you think it could be similar to this? You think your social skills are messy when I reality you're fine and just concerned with making sure you mask trauma?