SlugHeart

I went through something VERY similar - a half-sister found me on Myspace. Prior to her message I had suspicions my whole life that something was amiss, but eventually just dropped it. I questioned my parents and brother about it and found out i was adopted. The whole thing was kinda cool at first, then very bittersweet, and i went through a lot of moods/phases after finding out.

I'm sure they had their reasons, try not to focus too much on it, and see what the future holds for all of you :)

Thanks for doing this AMA. I've had VS for as long as I can remember, when I was super young I thought I was just seeing "atoms", like we learned in science class haha. Then I found out atoms are microscopic and such ;p When I first found out there was a name for it I found these forums which really helped feeling not alone; http://thosewithvisualsnow.yuku.com/

I was part of the FB group a few months ago, but everyone was kind of too dramatic about it for me. I guess I'm just so used to mine, I couldn't really connect with everyone else freaking out & looking for answers :/ Although I was pretty pleasantly surprised how many people were in the group and chatting about it.

I'm not sure how the depersonalization is a part of it though, I know I get that symptom because I have anxiety/panic disorder personally. All the other visual symptoms from what I can tell and experience myself are related. I also get the "pickaxe" headaches from time to time, which are so random. I could get 3 in one day then not again for 6 months, so annoying! lol

Haven't been there in so long honestly! But I remember it being one of the only places online that I found anyone who talked about it. I guess I don't focus on it anymore since it's just a natural part of me at this point.

thinking about it, I guess the depersonalization/derealization is kind of a side-symptom of not being able to understand what you're seeing. Although when I get it these days it's completely different than when I laid in the dark and just surrounded by fuzzies. But I can see how it can relate.

Like I said, I used to be in it and it just felt like people were freaking out all the time. I just couldn't relate at all. Maybe it's better now, but it seemed like no moderation was being done with the bunch of Off Topic posts and stuff too.