I read your post and that reminded me a bit of myself. My whole life I have had low self esteem and for some reason I thought I was an awful person. Many times I went to the gym because I wanted to be fit but always leave it, I wasn't feeling great even if I had a very nice body, I kept thinking bad of myself.
Stuff happened and I am almost 20 lb more than my lowest, started going back to the gym because I wanted to love myself, I had to take care of my body, because I deserved it. Everyday I woke up, run for an hour, I do weightlifting and run away and I think I feel exactly what you felt after your first run, I look awful, I smell, I am a mess but I feel invincible, I feel loved and each time I can run faster or lift more weight I feel great.
My mental health has improved 1000000% these last 2 months than my whole life and I am grateful for that. And it's funny because I am like you with pushups and other "simple" exercises, I can only do one so far but my goal is to be able to do 30 and then 40 and so on.
It's inspiring knowing a fellow sister did the same and actually got a career about it! I could feel your happiness while reading your post and I felt so identified. I am actually thinking of participating next year on my first marathon!
EDIT: please stay here! :D I am sure Reddit will appreciate your wisdom, positivity and knowledge so much!!
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I read your post and that reminded me a bit of myself. My whole life I have had low self esteem and for some reason I thought I was an awful person. Many times I went to the gym because I wanted to be fit but always leave it, I wasn't feeling great even if I had a very nice body, I kept thinking bad of myself.
Stuff happened and I am almost 20 lb more than my lowest, started going back to the gym because I wanted to love myself, I had to take care of my body, because I deserved it. Everyday I woke up, run for an hour, I do weightlifting and run away and I think I feel exactly what you felt after your first run, I look awful, I smell, I am a mess but I feel invincible, I feel loved and each time I can run faster or lift more weight I feel great.
My mental health has improved 1000000% these last 2 months than my whole life and I am grateful for that. And it's funny because I am like you with pushups and other "simple" exercises, I can only do one so far but my goal is to be able to do 30 and then 40 and so on.
It's inspiring knowing a fellow sister did the same and actually got a career about it! I could feel your happiness while reading your post and I felt so identified. I am actually thinking of participating next year on my first marathon!
EDIT: please stay here! :D I am sure Reddit will appreciate your wisdom, positivity and knowledge so much!!
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