PrinceKelso

1. Did you experience any opiate withdrawals after being admitted? If so, how did the staff handle that? How did you handle being in such a terrible environment whilst dealing with such harsh withdrawals?

2. I'm currently hooked on Kratom which acts similar to an opiate, though not as addictive. However, I still take up to 20-30 grams per day and if I miss a dose, I am not the same person. My question is, where do I even begin stopping? I hardly remember what sober feels like since my opioid receptors have been constantly saturated, and it feels like life is such a drag without it. Do you have any insight into this feeling and how to start quitting?

Hmm, I'm not sure why, but I wrote a nice few paragraphs back to you but it seems I forgot to press "save". Oops.

So I'll just sum it up by saying thank you so much for a thoughtful reply like this. I feel as if I needed to hear that. This whole time, I was disappointed in myself, as I believed I were strong enough to do this myself. It is revealing to be much more difficult than I ever imagined.

I think I will seek external help, it is probably what I needed. I know prison must have absolutely SUCKED, but perhaps it was a small blessing in disguise. The fact that you had to just fight through it in a place where it's near-impossible to acquire must've been extremely tough, but it got you through it with no relapses or anything. Maybe that's what I need, isolation, but I have a job, bills, and a fiance so I can't just check into rehab.

I will seek loved ones who understand this vice and go from there. Again, thank you so much. I wish you all the luck in the world as well, my friend, I'm thankful that you're out in the free because you seem like a very kind soul. :)