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Isn't that kinda like if I as a parent refused to educate my children, teach them how to read write or give them any knowledge of the world outside my house and then someone comes along and educates them and I decide to punish the children for it?

This might sound weird but did you ever feel like what you were expirencing wasn't that bad compared to someone else's suffering?

I had a ceisure 2 and half years ago that shut down all my cognitive functions and prevented me from properly using limbs. When I got into hospital everyone I met kinda thought what they had wasnt as bad as what someone else was going through.

Like we all hated it and thought it was really shit and stupid and fealt useless. Whenever I spoke to someone who was paralysed permanently from a fractured spine or could barely speak after a car accident or terminal with brain cancer I'd always feel really scummy for complaining because it seemed like what they were going through was so much worse than what I was dealing with.

But half of everyone said they fealt the same about me and others in hospital. It was everyone that thought this way but still way more than I expected

Sorry kind of a long comment but I was just wondering if you fealt anything similar. I'm really glad your doing well by the way

Yeah your probably right.

I used to get really angry when people would say it must be really hard for your parents because I was the one going through pain not them. But when I got admitted everyone was having strokes and ceisures all the time and it was genuinely terrifying because all you could do was watch. I was doing the same thing but it was sureal seeing someone else go through it

other patients who could walk but did not know where they were walking to or what they were doing. There were even some patients who used their shit to make paintings...

I found this genuinely funny though, we had a guy with epilepsy that had a fractured skull from falling down too many times so he had to wear a rugby cap type helmet all the time. He'd get up in the middle of the night and wander around stark naked and we always shout PAUL PUT YOUR HELMET ON! Like no one cares about his clothes at that point and half the nurses were content to let him wander round naked so long as his head was protected.

Thanks for posting this mate, I've been scrolling through your replies and I really relate to a lot of the stuff you've talked about especially the parts about not being able to walk or use your hands. We don't talk about this a lot at home and I don't know why reading about other people's illnesses puts me at ease so much.

Sorry it's been shit, hope the rest of the recovery gose considering. And again seriously thanks