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Throw-away for obvious reasons.

I may be downvoted but I sincerely hope that you answer this.

I am a diagnosed sociopath. My SO is aware. I've never been with someone that brought such value to my life. We've been together 4 months. That is really quite a long relationship for me. She is bipolar, but well controlled with meds.

I'm excellent at maintaining my social mask for days or maybe even weeks at a time, but I have a terrible tendency to get bored of people, see them as play things, and then play with them. It's fun for me, but not for them. An example from earlier today, is that she made some small mistake, and I dug into her. I forced her into a situation, linguistically, where she'd have to admit to being a genuine moron, and then pressed the issue harder and harder, making her feel even more stupid for not seeing it, until she admitted it. I could attempt to salvage some semblance of purpose other than my own amusement by saying that I was attempting to train her to comply sooner rather than later -- indeed, I do train her to comply, but usually not so harshly, since I've learned that people tend to go away if you're consistently so harsh with them. Unfortunately, I'm fully aware that I was only playing with her to amuse myself by causing her to admit defeat, and that she is a moron. I enjoy making people say and do things contrary to their nature.

As I get more and more bored with a person, I more and more frequently find myself doing things like this to entertain myself.

If the build-up is slow, they stick around a lot longer than if I were suddenly a perpetual asshole, but they do eventually leave or cheat or something as I become vicious more and more often.

So, I suppose what I'm interested to know is... How do I make her not leave? I realize that there are some things I'm going to have to change, so perhaps the question might be... how do I control this urge (it's almost a subconscious thing that I don't know I've done until it's over) to toy with people once I get bored of them? Or perhaps, how can I find other ways to toy with people that might entertain me for longer, besides doing things which might incidentally and unfortunately, hurt them?

EDIT: I should also mention... rather crucially, we are in a D/s relationship. I'm curious how this impacts your potential response, and out of curiosity, I wonder how you feel about D/s relationships in general.

for the record: Ostensibly, I believe that a D/s relationships require mutual respect, and require that the "D" ("Master" in my case) must be the most rational person they can be. In my case, that's easy enough. Rationality (when not sinking my teeth into a "toy") is automatic.

I appreciate your advice, but I have gone the "you should go to therapy" route, to no avail. Thank you for taking the time to respond anyway, though.

I wonder if you have any response to my question about D/s relationships?