Never_Free_Never_Me

I’m a cancer survivor but the initial suspicion was stage 4 colon cancer which I knew was a death sentence. It ended up being stage 4 Non Hodgkin Lymphoma. Biopsy results took a week to get and within that waiting period I had all the thoughts of dying in my head such as the last thing I will tell certain people, my last Facebook post etc. I had accepted my fate but there was a fear of the unknown and that I would miss my loved ones which was odd because I know that consciousness ceases with death (depending on what your religious beliefs are). This line of thinking can descend into a chaotic spiral. Luckily I only had to deal with it for a week before I was told I had a chance of surviving which meant my focus shifted away from acceptance of my demise to a battle. How would you qualify your frame of thought on a day to day basis as you live with your metastatic cancer?

What’s your alcoholic beverage of choice?

Just kidding.

Man, you’re tough to have gone through that many transplants.

Come to Canada where the pot is legal and the liver transplants are free :)