Neuropolis

Please get help. You sound pretty lucid otherwise, and a decent person to be going through this mindfuck and still be worried about what it could do to the people around you.

I've never been in one myself. The phrase "mental institution" tends to conjure a cartoon horror movie. But I've had a few friends spend time in them. The only ones who hated their time spent there were the ones who didn't WANT help, or couldn't admit there was something wrong.

I mean, it's not a picnic either, I'm sure, but it's a safe atmosphere full of people whose job is to help you. And being young is all the more reason to go. This might just be me being 30 but you could go into a coma tomorrow, wake up at 25, and still be waaay ahead of schedule compared to most people. This will get harder to deal with the older you get, man.