Lost_Little

the emotional connection and release that will occur if you're on the right path.

Could you elaborate on this please?

I was raped in my early twenties, and it spent quite a number of years in repressed memory before my brain imploded and I began dealing with what happened. I haven't been to therapy specific for this (I've been to deal with unrelated issues and tried to bring it up, but it was outside the focus of that therapy and the therapist suggested rape crisis counselling and moved on). I've been pretty terrified to do since and so am practicing self healing (sort of, sometimes...)

Sorry for jumping in late here. I'm curious what emotional connection and release should feel like? Just reading the words, I don't think I've attained that.

Thanks so much for your reply.

I guess I haven't quite reached that stage yet. I still have a lot of debilitating lows, but in saying that they do tend to be further apart and less intense as time goes on.

I would like to go to therapy, but I've been stuck in an infinite "now's not the time" loop. Deep down I know there isn't really a right time. I spent all these years recovering from the emotionally abusive relationship I had with the guy that raped me, and those memories only started to resurface over midway through that and I tried to deal with that personally. Since then I've gotten back on my feet somewhat - got a job, socialising a little etc. with the help of my therapists.

I think the thing that scares me about going back to therapy is the fear of the unknown. Sure, I've been to therapy before but not for that. I'm afraid I'll spiral and go back on the progress I've made.