Lordofseagulls

There was this one girl I got to know. The day before the attack she told me about her older sister who died before she was born. She told me that her purpose in life was to live the life for her sister. She died the next day.

I've gone through that scenario a hundred times in my head. "What if I hid in that tree and jumped him?" "What if I tackled him when he stood on that slightly uneven rocky hill?" "What if I pushed that piano against him while he walked up those stairs?" It never occured to me once to act heroic during the incident. Those thoughts only appeared in retrospect. I actually felt regret for a while for not attempting to kill him when I had "all those chances", but that was probably just trauma nagging my head. He could've been stopped sure, but it would've been a very reckless move. I know some people threw rocks against him, but that was about it. I detest people who say things like "If I was there, I would've assembled a group of 5 and ordered them to take strategic positions so we could've surrounded and gotten him!" One guy actually said something along those lines. That's not how your brain works when you're being attacked with guns. Not an untrained brain, at least.

"Hi :)" and my mother just bursted out crying.

"Oh shit." I actually think I said it out loud when it first hit me. At the beginning I thought it was some teenagers messing around with AK47's for some reason, and in my head that wasn't such a big deal. Then people suddenly got shot in the room next to me, and panic ensued. When I heard the gunfire being so close, I realized that this wasn't just some joke or a drill. People were actually getting killed in the room next to me. "Oh shit."

EDIT: one word

I think they should've sentenced him to 15 minutes on the street.

No but seriously, I think it's ridicilous. Many people misinterpret the 21 years of being only 21 years. But the thing is, after 21 years has passed, they can judge whether or not he's safe to get back in civilization. If they deem it unsafe, they can keep him in 'custody' for another 5 years, 10 years, 21, years.. even if they're convinced he won't kill again, people will kill him the second he gets released. So I don't think he will ever get out.

On the other hand, I completely disagree on him being sane! I saw most of the trial, that guy is a fucking looney. One thing that bothered me was that the whole trial eventually turned into a stride in on whether he was sane or insane. By declaring him sane, they made him into a martyr. Because of that more people support him than what they would he would've been declared insane. Declaring him sane can make him look like some genius mastermind who knew what he was doing, and the whole Manifest-thing immediately appears more legitimate. If they declared him insane I believe more people would see him as some crazed gun-nut who went on a killing spree, with some crazy political rant that he called a 'manifest'. Many people disagree with me on this opinion, but I stand by it.