JTfromOKC

aww man...so sad I missed this AMA

Looking forward to it Beverly! :hugs:

So I had some "secrets" that I literally never told anyone. They were along the lines of:

1) I hate my job

2) I hate working for my brother

3) I can't stand working in corporate america and feel like my spirit is dying every day that I go into the office and put up with the bullshit I have to put up with from day to day.

4) No job/franchise/life seems interesting to me and honestly I just want to not work and chill out until something appeals to me. But I can't afford to do that so I work in IT making over 100k per year and I'm bored....seriously.

I feel like I should be grateful for what I have and the job that helps put food on the table, a beautiful car in the garage and great clothes on my body......but I'm not honestly enjoying this life/this job/this stuff. I urn to help people and have a job that offers much more flexibility than my 8-5 job I currently have.

But then I think about all those that don't have what I have and I feel ashamed for these thoughts/feelings.

I find that more and more often I turn to alcohol and video games for escape and to forget just how unhappy I am.

Is this seriously what life is about?

What the fuck is wrong with me??

Am I missing out on life?? and if so....what does that even mean??

I'm not kidding here. I'm 46 years old and honestly find no excitement in life anymore. I quit drinking for 16+ years, I got 100% debt free, I quit smoking over 12 years ago after smoking 1+ packs per day, I own my house, car, 2 motorcycles and I'm investing in the stock market and I'm miserable. 20 years ago, I would have killed for the life and flexibility I have today.

WTF is wrong with me??