ItsFatAlpha

I have severe depression. I often lay awake all night rotating between fantasizing about suicide, thinking about everything that I have lost or don't have in life and all the people who are worse off for having me in their life.... But, I'd never actually commit suicide because I am a single father.

I've been in therapy most of my life, I'm on meds, but sometimes I just am suffering so badly and am alone.

I'm afraid to call at those moments because I'm afraid I'll be 302ed (Involuntary commitment in my state) or end up with CYS at my home, etc.

What would happen if I called?

The first two photos after I signed in we're gay ass eating. While I understand some people are into that, for me, it is an instant turn off. They had no borders, captions or anything else obvious where I could unsubscribe to those channels. When I click the photo, all that comes up is the exact same photo.

I went in to see what I was default following and nothing was obviously going to include that.

How do I get rid of the stuff that disgusts me?

I just wanted to say, I signed out and back in and it seems to be fixed. All the posts have info with them now.

I would say the odds are slightly greater than zero.