Fisheswithfeet

Thank you for that.

I feel like I could have written this myself, you remind me a lot of, well me. I used to be a happy-go-lucky, class clown goofball. Now I am emotionally flatlined, I don't smile very often, nor do I laugh. One of my lifelong friends mentioned recently that my voice doesn't have any inflection anymore. I wish I could feel things the way I used to, but I just can't. It fucking sucks.

Do you wish you'd skipped the 9 months of misery and just had it lopped off from the start?

Also, I imagine you've taken a boat load of narcotic pain meds at this point. Any concerns or issues w/ physical dependence or addiction?

T