Darkpheonix

If I had your job, I would be the happiest person in the world.

Almost 5 years ago when I was 15, I was in a bad car accident. My best friend and I were in the back seat, and our friend was driving. The car hit ice going down a hill and slammed into a few trees. My best friend was ejected from the vehicle and she landed head first into the tree. Physically I'm fine. My face went through the rear window after my friend crashed through it so i had a few cuts, i needed stitches on my finger, and I have a bulging disc in my spine. I lucked out. My best friend, the only person I have ever trusted, did not. She died that night. Physically I healed in a month. Mentally, I don't think I will ever heal. I was told they don't know how I was pulled back into the car after my face hit the back windshield. According to physics, I should have been ejected as well. But I lived and my best friend didn't, and I am guilty for that every single day of my life. I have a hard time letting people into my heart because I am so afraid of losing them. I even feel that way with my daughter. I still have flashbacks and nightmares, but I just don't talk about it now because I try to bury the feelings down because I am so sick of dealing with the pain. I miss you, Amanda.

What qualifications do you need to become a 911 dispatcher? I've wanted to become one ever since I was in an accident when I was 15.

Thank you for your service.