CalPal_The_Great

How do you find out what your talent is supposed to be?

I live in Canada right now, I'm a bus driver where I live. My ex broke up with me 6 days before Christmas, probably to pursue her career as a firefighter, and I've been struggling to find my sense of self-worth after being broken-hearted. COVID has made it effectively impossible to hang out with what little friends I have left. I quit social media - facebook, instagram, snapchat - because I felt I do not belong.

I run 60k every week, 10k per day with one day of rest, but it doesn't give me any sense of accomplishment, or even really make me feel any better or worse about myself. I keep making flag designs for local municipalities, but no one seems to really care about adopting new flag designs. I keep reading books on self-esteem and putting in all this work to try and get better, but at the end of the day, I still feel that sense of rejection has broken my sense of purpose, my ideas of who I thought I could be.

Do you have any tips for how to rediscover your purpose after what feels like so many setbacks and so very few sensations of personal gain?

God, that is horrid timing. Yeah, I think Im gonna do my best to find the positives in this time, figure out how I can possibly turn myself around in such a time!

What do you mean, get a job as a fitness instructor or something along those lines?

Because if that is what you mean, well... kind of a bad time to change careers, honestly.

Besides that, I dont know if I am all that motivating, or have the right attitude to push people towards their fitness goals. I don't even know what I want, for a physical goal; how could I possibly inspire others to find what they are looking for?