ButIDontWana

IMO It's the experience of novelty; the "ineffable" quality of psychedelics is that they make it possible to experience the world as though it's all new again.

No one stops to look at the leaves of a rosebush nearly as intently as a toddler- adults note the roses (or their lack) and move on. It's a known quantity that varies between known states, and it would be wasteful to continue evaluating the known object and its' known states.

We get so tied up in our labels for a thing that we stop considering the thing as itself and only as the labels we've applied. We aren't looking for detail anymore when we've categorized, we're just noting which label fits best.

I'd go a step further and say that once you start getting older (Mid 20s, maybe?) and start thinking in categories of labels and not just individual labels, it becomes really easy to stop interacting with the world as it exists and to start reasoning by proxy. Things only have to fit a close enough label to work with, and we never get to anything more specific or more accurate.

I know that psychedelics in my late teens were VERY different than they are as an adult, and I think part of that difference is that it's a bigger transition from adult cognition than it was as a teen.

And what does that have to do with someone contemplating suicide, today, who's been considering it for some time?

Does others' change of heart and eventual remarkable lives do anything to make someone hurt less today? Does it remove their right to agency? Does it mean their ongoing pain will somehow be assuredly lessened tomorrow? Does it mean their past, their scars and their burdens and their memories, their illnesses, their pain and suffering, suddenly cease to exist?

If you'll allow choice in life- career choice, choice of spouse, choice of living arrangement, choice of friends- why would you deny someone the choice over how and when their life ends?

"Why kill yourself? It gets better and some people live remarkable lives" is like telling an addict "You should just stop using, it gets better when you're sober"

No shit, does it really? I'm positive they hadn't heard that before, or considered it. /s

How long were you on a ketamine infusion for? Most protocols I've heard of in the States are outpatient procedures measured in hours, not days.

Do you remember much about the dosing protocol?