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Not OP, but filing the report would mean that if he were charged with rape again it would come up that there was another report filed against him for a similar/identical crime. It would give more weight to a subsequent victim's allegations.

I think that may be the issue; a PR thing. I mean think about an insurance company "Welp, sorry Bob we won't cover your chemo or radiation therapy. However, if you decide to kill yourself once you run out of hope (mostly due to our non-coverage), well you let us know and we'll sign the paperwork in a jiffy!" I mean fuck... that just sounds even worse now that I said it.

You sound like a wonderful person. I'm sorry you experienced what you did, as well as the other young women. I'm a survivor or rape myself, and I also was young at the time and didn't press charges. I know how life altering it can be. At the very least the school should have to pay for any related mental health counseling you and the others require for the rest of your lives. I'd hope they'd have to pay a lot more than that, but it'd be a start. Until such a time I highly recommend organizations like RAINN; in my experience they're really wonderful. I didn't seek counselling until years later, but it turned out to be a positive experience for me.

I wish you and the other unnamed women nothing but the best. I sincerely hope you get the justice and compensation you deserve.

Edit: From your other posts, I also know how debilitating the nightmares/flashbacks can be from the PTSD. I can watch almost anything and not get triggered (I hate the negative connotations that word has started accruing) after all these years... but that one scene in the Hunger Games series where Katniss wakes up from a PTSD nightmare, that left me ugly crying out of nowhere remembering how bad they were. The flashbacks suck, I can be play wrestling with my boyfriend (nothing abusive or anything, just us joking around having fun) and he pinned me and put his knee on my chest and for a second I couldn't breathe (my attacker choked me), sent me right back to that moment. It was something so innocuous and playful and there I was crying, and that just made me feel shittier. He's understanding and everything, wasn't upset with me at all I was just pissed with myself. Try not to get pissed with yourself, its not your fault the human brain is weird and stupid.

I've also always heard the phrase "better to put them down a week early than a day too late".

Animals don't fear/dread death like humans do, instead they fear pain and suffering. It's always better for their last memories to be pleasant rather than them being afraid. If they have a chronic worsening condition that they're on medication for take them to the vet when you notice discomfort, if there is nothing more the vet can do to make them comfortable it's far better to put them down ASAP when they're 'just' uncomfortable as opposed to waiting for them to be in pain. Ideally you don't want their last memory on earth to be a painful one, far better it be a slightly uncomfortable but happy one.

Medicaid in NY is fucking epic. As a disabled person I love it.

You're right about the shitty payments with SSI though (my injury occurred at 14, before I ever had a chance to pay in).

I get ~$750 a month, that's $4.69 an hour if I was working 40 hours a week, minimum wage here is $15 an hour. The state says that $4.69 an hour is not enough to survive, and they're right, yet that's all they provide for disabled people who literally can't work and have no other choice.

I'm not saying people with disabilities should live like royalty, but it'd be a huge relief to just be provided with minimum wage. It's not my fault I can't work, I didn't ask to become permanently disabled.